For as long as I can remember, I've been THAT person. The one who truly is just there to have fun. The one who is happier with small amounts of progress than fancy ribbons. The one who, quite honestly, has more fun cheering everyone else on than competing themselves.
That person is still alive and well, but more and more, I'm seeing a new part of me; a person who wants to get out there, who wants to be competitive, wants to be better NOW, and who is impatient when things don't go to plan.
|We wants it. I'm still not super hung up on winning things, but I'm much more open to the possibility these days...I am afraid I am on a very slippery slope into ribbon whoredom ;)|
I'm not sure I like New Me very much sometimes! I think it's always been there, because I am super awesome at being very very hard on myself. Otherwise, that side of me normally stays under wraps. I don't think it has made an appearance until recently simply because there was nothing I felt overly passionate about AND had the means and opportunity to pursue. Horses have always been my hobby, and I've always been interested in training my horses better and being a better rider, but perhaps in a slightly vague way - the idea was good but I couldn't see how I was going to get from where I was to where I wanted to be, and besides, no rush, I was doing alright as I was. These past few months that perspective has really changed. I have been surrounded by seriously competent riders and trainers and have been seeing things very clearly. I'm absolutely certain I want to be that good, and am 100% committed to putting in the work to get there. So maybe there are some positives to New Me after all...