Sounds reasonable, right? Ha, not so much. My actual reasons for not wanting to persevere with jumping lessons:
1. It's hard. Like, so hard. As an adult learning how, it's frustrating when my body just doesn't do what I ask. Dressage is just so much easier, and progress and results seem more easily obtained. I can feel what's right and what's wrong...whereas jumping just always feels a bit weird and not nearly so intuitive.
2. I'm (wisely) not as confident jumping as anything else. I know it's my weakest link, and I easily fall into thinking I just can't go higher, and/or I'll never improve, so why bother.
3. Pony. This is the lamest excuse of all, because Bridget is game. But, seriously, anything over 2'6" or so on a pony just feels and looks BIG.
4. We're in a good spot right now. As mentioned, we can jump small courses happily and confidently. Why potentially push further and mess that up?
I'm such a head case.
Last night went like this:
EC: "Tack up in my jump saddle"
Me: "Oh shite"
Me: "The weather sucks. I'm cold. I'm still sick. I hope we're not jumping THAT course. Bridget is probably tired." Side note: B filled in on an emergency basis for one of the lesson ponies last night, and very carefully carted around a tiny child prior to my lesson. It was about the cutest thing I've ever seen, but B looked...less than motivated to move quickly, lol, and certainly would not have found their activities tiring in any way:)
Me: "Holy crap, B actually has a TON of energy tonight. What a good girl to behave for the small child. " Cue B trying to bolt and buck me off. Oh B, you are indeed a prize.
Me: "Oh my, those barrels that always worry me are the smallest thing on course. By a substantial amount. By, like at least half. I'm gonna die."
Me: First round: "OK, we survived"
Me: Second round: "Actually, I can do this"
Me: Third (even bigger) round: "Actually, this is fun"
Me: Fourth round: "Rawrr, Bridget get up to that jump! Come on, let's go! We own this thing!! Add strides are for small ponies, you've got this in 2!!"
I'm so ridiculous.
|And...all the pics I wanted to use are on my tablet that I left at home last weekend. So you get memes and a crappy phone pic.|
Take homes from this lesson:
- I can do this.
- It's fun.
- I need to make myself do this more often.
- B looked like she was having fun the entire time, and didn't quit once.
- I need to do more jump schools on my own. Even if it's tiny. Keep doing it until it doesn't take until halfway through the ride for me to be confident.
- Set up heaps of related distances and bounces until I am better about keeping a consistent pace through them. Poles on the ground if I really don't want to jump. No excuses.
-I should trust my instincts. I'm seeing the strides and where I want to be and I need to not second guess or underestimate myself or let Bridget tell me I'm wrong.
- With Bridget, if in doubt, pushing forward to the jump is always the answer.
Of course, being the expert EC is in keeping me motivated to do all the things, I sense a super difficult dressage lesson coming my way in which I can do nothing but wrong ("See, look how fun jumping is! Don't you want to jump more?" Lol)